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Christmas 1991
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I copied this poem and sent it to my son two years before he was murdered.  We had not had contact for almost 2 years and I thought he would feel my love for him even though we could not be together.  I also did not and could not do anything for the holidays in 2002.  So I have nothing on this.  Just Christmas 2003.  I managed to do Christmas then.
 

 
 

 
Misty Memories
Gentle snowflakes touch my face
As a tear trails down my cheek
Among the crowds and glistening tinsel
Your face, I once more seek.
Another year has come to pass
With not one glimpse of you
Except in dreams, you visit me
In shades of msty blue.
Christmas time will soon be here
I long to see your face
Just once again, to see you smile
And dream of your embrace.
Christmas time is boxed up
In tones of purple hue
Its wrapped in misty memories
And laced with thoughts of you.

I thought time would make this year easier and I have found it has not.  I still miss you, Jimmy, as is if it were yesterday.  Time does not heal.  My memories of this poem brings sadness, yet I remember sending this to you in a Christmas card three years ago.  You were away from the family at the time and I wanted you to know how I felt.  I knew you knew I loved you then as I will until the day I leave this planet.  No amount of time will take away from me the memories I have of the Christmas we all shared with this family.
I realize someone took you away from this earth, but they did not take my love for you nor my memories.  They have not really.  As much as they think they have.  Jimmy, you were too good for those who thought you were like them.  Thats why you are where you are.  Christmas seems harder than last year.  Because I do have contact with your family.  Your wife and kids and grandson.  My great grandson.  You know they are living as best they can.  The memories of the last Christmas we had together will forever be in my heart.  Waking you up and having you all here with me was the best present I could have ever had.  Money was tight, but to see the happiness on your face throughout the day was enough for me.  We were "FAMILY" again and thats all that mattered.  To know what would happen only four short months later would have made me shudder.  I am glad I didn't know then.  I couldn't have changed anything then as I can't now.  I can only pray for a chance one day before I die, to be reunited with ALL my family again.  Happy and proud of the fact we are family and we stick together no matter what others try to do.  Love is stronger than anything they say.  I pray God finds it in His power to answer this one prayer.
Jimmy, I love you sweetie, and always will.
Love,
Mom