Life As I t Has Been For ME
How I Cope
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Mike & Jimmy 1971
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I pray for the son I lost and his family.  For the son I lost because of his brothers death and the husband who chooses to be under the control of his grief.  I am strong because that is what my son would want me to be.  I still cry.  I still feel I can't go on sometimes.  I still get angry.  I still cope somehow with this loss
I don't feel things could be any worse at this point.  My faith keeps me going where I don't want to be.
It has been a little over 31 weeks since my son was murdered.  Answers are what I need most to unanswerable questions.  Peace and serenity is what I strive for.
My son I'll see again, but the physical part is what I miss the most now.  It is hard.  I have no answers to help someone suffering the loss of a child.  Prayer is my only answer.  Study the books on death.  That's how I cope.
Thank you my beloved son for the opportunity to share my feelings with others.

How He Loved His Bikes
My son, Jimmy loved motorcycles.  This is not exactly like his, but he did have a HARLEY.  He loved his bike.  It was him.  He told me once I was getting really educated about Bikers.  That the bikes took on the personality of their owners.  My sons bike was him.  He had different bikes over the years, but I think his favorite was the one he had when he was murdered.  He had more than one Harley.  He loved the way it looked.  I had always heard HD stood for $100.  Funny, it didnt mean that much to him.  He kept them running no matter what.
When Jimmy was getting ready for a Run one time, while he was living with us, I helped him print a logo for his bike.  He got so frustrated working on the computer, so asked me for help.  (Didn't go fast enough for him) We did a pretty good job on it too!  He put it on his bike and almost made the Run.  But due to some annoying circumstances, he missed the full run.

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When Jimmy first got his last bike, it did look like this one.